Chapter 11:11

There’s been a multitude of things tumbling thru my head on low the past while. Mostly things about food and when I can eat again and being incredibly lonely. Like so lonely I cry a lot because there seems to be little else to do. It really isn’t anyone’s fault but my own so I’m not complaining. Just stating things the way they are. It’s not like I’m pinning away for my other home 24/7. It’s not like I’m miserable here. It’s more like I remember the girl who lived in NYC and I miss her. And people give me the hairy eye ball and say I need to just be the same girl here then. Well, it just doesn’t work that way and no one understands that and maybe that’s why I feel so lonely. It’s hard to explain why I feel so completely at home and happy when I see a Muslim family walking through the mall. How I follow them a little too closely just to be in the presence of a different nationality and hear then speak.  It’s hard to explain how I still have to do double take in the grocery store whe...

"Redeeming every part of each day..." (taken from one of my favourite songs by Laura Story) Seriously. It hit me today, not like a ton of bricks, not like a wham in the face that catches you off guard, but more like a fog that suddenly disappeared and revealed a spectacular display. A scene you'd been told about, and imagined. Dreamed about, and prayed for, but never really thought you'd live to see. Until the moment you did. That moment happened today. And left me rather speechless. It's easy to say that the promises of God never fail. It's easy to say that He never leaves you hanging. But somehow it's completely different when you really experience it. Somehow it comes alive when you look back and actually see how God was faithful, every, single, time.  I'm seriously leaving New York City now. I have less than 72 hours left before I fly higher than the skyscrapers, and leave this city that has become my home. This last week was rough, to ...