What Light Does
A little overwhelming might be a way to describe it. God went above and beyond today. The way such a painful day could hold so much beauty. I should have known God would do that. He always shows up like that and I, hanging on to doubt to protect myself from disappointment, am always surprised. I'm reading "A Grief Observed" by S.C. Lewis. It was recommended to me by my good friend and I barely got through the first paragraph without tears. It's brought up some emotions I haven't felt in a while. I found a journal entry from the week after she died. "I felt a strange pain in my chest and heard someone gasp before I realized I'd stopped breathing again and my lungs were taking over." Grief is most definitely something like fear. I'll quote Lewis, "I am not afraid, but the sensation is like being afraid. The same fluttering in the stomach, the same restlessness, the yawning. I keep swallowing." I keep swallowing. That line. I don...